7 posts tagged “stay”
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Do you see, what I see?
Do you think, what I think?
Do you believe in what I believe?
There is one cure for you then. Read between the lines.
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dont.
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Later..
The speaking tree says this.
O you, the one
blessed with the black heart. All your heartfelt wishes shall be
granted. But granted they shall be, by the devil.
If you so wish for yourself, you shall be cursed.
Even
today when I look back at times past, I always have tried so hard not
to wish for anything, not to expect. It comes true always, but the
devil gives nothing for free, sigh*
I try hard to suppress my wishes, my dreams. But sometimes, I am just not in time to ...
yes, I persist, persist I do. But..even
Persistence needs assurance.
An assurance of a tomorrow. No, I dont want it to be bright or cheerful. Just another day tomorrow. Another day to live and to wish for a day after.
And another day after, and another.
Until a certain fairy tale comes true.
Just until then.
Later..
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Sins. More and more. Somehow, I am unable to stop myself.
Heh, yes. Perhaps I have lost control. No, you cannot prevent it. You can help yourself though. Stay away.
Touching lives across the world, I am tired. When someone asked me the same thing, I was at a loss for an answer.
They asked unbelievingly,
"are you sure, there was no one in your life, who has touched your life?"
Yes, the answer is no. No one touched me and just left. Anyone who dared touch this abomination, was cursed. And when they try to undo it, a few shreds of my soul are taken away with it. Those who have touched, they know. How I follow them, their cares, their dreams, their wishes, their sorrows. How I make them mine. How I become blind, How I forget myself.
I have forgotten myself. Truly. Right now, who am I?
I do not know. More importantly, I have no wish to know. For I live in your afterglow. And I will continue to do so, long after you leave
Who wants tomorrow? I dont.
Sometimes, they wish to leave with a few pieces of my life, my soul. I never stop them. I let you go. All I need is your afterglow. Just come closer once, before you leave. Let me whisper a wish into your ears.
I will find my own way, never mind.
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............coming to this day, when I see a blinding light, as you want to come closer to me. I warn, "stay away", my soul cowers in the corner of the room. You come to heal me, raise me.
All I have say is that.
"Touch me not......... Lest I follow your afterglow."
Later..matte imasu
crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how I fall
confusing what is real
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced
that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before so insecure
distracting/reacting
against my will I stand beside my own reflection
it's haunting how I can't seem...
Reanimate Life. Reanimate love. Reanimate lies. Reanimate the truth.
Seek thyself, seek thy own. Seek not me, seek yourself.
Later..
Perseverance.
Politeness.
Pride.
Power.
"Aren't you happy?"
"Why don't you smile ?"
"Why the hell are you always so serious?"
Absolute
Astounding
Anew
Armoured
Alone
"Why are you sitting in the corner alone?"
"Will I ever see you laugh?"
"Has something happened?"
Serious
Severe
Sarcastic
Shapeless
Shameless
"Have you ever love anyone?"
"Hey, who's you latest crush?"
"hey how about a party day after ?"
Troubled
Timeless
Tension
Tornado
Thought
"Are you depressed?"
"Who is your best friend?"
"Why don't you hang out with us guys?"
Evil
Evolution
Everyday
Eerie
End
Can anyone suggest me some answers.
I think I am running out of time, out of spaces to hide and out of road to run away. The people are getting to me. The light hurts my eyes. The questions hurt my ears.
Its not difficult to live like this but difficult to stay alive.
Not difficult to breathe in but difficult to breathe out.
Not difficult to listen but difficult to speak.
My answers are peppered with maybes, procrastinations and lies alike. Paranoia
I wish not to fool you anymore. Why do you wished to be fooled any more?
I have tried to smile without reason. I have tried to laugh with abandon. How can I? I have forgotten how to ..
I wish not to learn. Why do you force me to.
Why?
Too many whys....far too many.
Can stop now.
Just go away.
Later...
Win dain a lotica |
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Win dain a lotica
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A new life. Another dream.
You feel warm. You feel the warmth of the day on your face. It is light now. The sunlight is licking your cheeks like your pet dog. Making you feel wet with warmth, with love, with the day.
Your blanket feels snug over your naked skin. Like a cocoon, like your mother's womb. You just part your eyes for a second, the light hurts your eyes, you shut them again. Your hands snake towards the other pillow. Searching.
Your fingers find what you were searching for. Your beloved, still asleep.
You move closer, snuggle up under the blanket...prop your head up on your elbows. Lovingly, you look into your beloved 's face. With a careful hand you play with your beloved hair...and smile to yourself. How you wish the moment to last for 'forever'. You know, you are having a dream. You want the dream to last for 'forever'.
You smile again. You look outside. Your dream world. You see clouds. You see..life. You see..your dream. Your look at your beloved again. You bend over to reach the lips and you kiss your love. You kiss for a moment. you wish again, this moment lasts 'forever' . You kiss again, you fear the dream will end soon
.'Forever' these days is not what it used to be back then. 'Forever', these days lasts not that long.
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At this point of time, your beloved wakes up. Asks you, if you are alright..You try to say yes, but you cant. You want to just look into your beloved' s eyes 'forever'. But you are running out of time. Your beloved fails to understand. Looks at you with confused eyes. Your face shows your fear of losing your perfect life.
You run out of the room, into the sun outside. You search for some reassurance from the sun that your dream has yet to end. You ...find the sun setting.
You feel your legs give way under you..you fall to your knees and see your sun setting.
Your 'forever' has come to an end.
And with a start you wake up from your dream.
Tears in your eyes, hurt in your heart and nothing in your hand.
Nothing to hold on to.
Later..
Imagine this in terms of "I" and see the difference, or rather the similarity.
