2 posts tagged “answers”
Sins. More and more. Somehow, I am unable to stop myself.
Heh, yes. Perhaps I have lost control. No, you cannot prevent it. You can help yourself though. Stay away.
Touching lives across the world, I am tired. When someone asked me the same thing, I was at a loss for an answer.
They asked unbelievingly,
"are you sure, there was no one in your life, who has touched your life?"
Yes, the answer is no. No one touched me and just left. Anyone who dared touch this abomination, was cursed. And when they try to undo it, a few shreds of my soul are taken away with it. Those who have touched, they know. How I follow them, their cares, their dreams, their wishes, their sorrows. How I make them mine. How I become blind, How I forget myself.
I have forgotten myself. Truly. Right now, who am I?
I do not know. More importantly, I have no wish to know. For I live in your afterglow. And I will continue to do so, long after you leave
Who wants tomorrow? I dont.
Sometimes, they wish to leave with a few pieces of my life, my soul. I never stop them. I let you go. All I need is your afterglow. Just come closer once, before you leave. Let me whisper a wish into your ears.
I will find my own way, never mind.
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............coming to this day, when I see a blinding light, as you want to come closer to me. I warn, "stay away", my soul cowers in the corner of the room. You come to heal me, raise me.
All I have say is that.
"Touch me not......... Lest I follow your afterglow."
Later..matte imasu
The other side of moon, no one has seen. The day that will come tomorrow no one will see until tomorrow. No one knows, who will die tomorrow. Who will live, who will grow cold??
A mystery. It is all a mystery. It sounds cliched doesn't it. Every enlightened writer must have at some time or the other commented on this paradox of our existence. So what's the point you ask??Hmm...i too asked myself that. Perhaps too many times. I set out to find the answers for myself. That was a mistake i made. A bad mistake. Something that altered the course of my life. I should have remained in the cocoon of uncertainty. But i was young and hot blooded, really headstrong. I wanted to find some answers. I wish i had never been such a fool.
What happened.? I found my answers alright. They were easy to find but their simplicity took the meaning out of life. I now no longer could see a valid reason to live , to love to make friends. it seemed so childish, So old fashioned. So illogical. Yet, there i was missing the whole point of it all. The whole point of living and not just existing. To live one must not reason with things that what differentiates one's life from an existence. Now that i knew the reasons, i could not bring myself to return to a normal life again. How could I? It seemed meaningless.
Yet, destiny whom i mocked every passing day of my life, wanted to teach to teach me a lesson. The hard way.
The distances between me and my people grew. I grew out of a life into a shell. i wanted to speak but never spoke. There was no point. The knowledge corrupted my mind. My ideals shook. My priorities changed. I became more of a ghost, an undead moving among the living. So blissfully aware of the life truths. i wished to be ignorant again.
Ignorance is bliss.
If you could pick up one good thing from my ramblings, it is this. Never try to look for too many answers. Never try to see beyond the looking glass. You will find the truth as me. But you will lose your will to live. The truths are simple and not worth the sacrifice they demand. I found it out the hard way. I want you to know this beforehand.
Self is very complex thing. Try not to unravel it. Be what you are. Be innocent be happy. Don't try to change what you are. For what you are is what defines you. I tried to change and was reduced to this. How I wish to be ignorant again?
Alas, what is done is done. But sometimes It feels lonely here. Sometimes i wish there were some others like me. Someone I could talk to. Yes, it might seem selfish on my part. But the cold winds are now the only companions i have.
Kiss me my minstrel.
Later...
